Five Finger Death Punch's battles with sobriety centered around vocalist Ivan Moody last year, though bassist Chris Kael says he hasn't had it too easy either. Kael in a series of tweets and Instagram posts details his struggles with substance abuse, how he's staying sober, and his newfound sobriety.
It's a bit of a read but it's worth it. Kael says he's also working on a book talking about his struggles and time with the band, and jokes that it'll be the same title as his sex tape – Pounding For Pain.
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My main reason for rehab was depression. The chemicals were just making it worse. Life hits hard and even a strong motherfucker like myself needs assistance sometimes. It finally worked for me when I threw my hands to the universe and realized I couldn’t do it alone. Still can’t! https://t.co/rQmdg5v3Ri
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
It will all be told in detail in a book I’m working on called “Pounding For Pain.” Also, conveniently, the title of my sex tape if it’s ever leaked…. https://t.co/fjKblqT2MR
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
My support circle is strong and I have certainly tightened it up in sobriety. My voice here is to inspire all that if depression, cocaine and alcohol can hit me, it can hit any of us. We can all overcome if we give up and let the universe guide us from that self inflicted Hell. https://t.co/KwNu1hqRb2
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
Failing is not manning up, handling your shit and coming out on the other side. What good rock biography doesn’t have a chapter on rehab? Am I right @NikkiSixx? Hell. He was right there when I first started losing control! He’s seen me on a stretcher. Not my proudest moment. https://t.co/rQyHfzTL3S
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
One other thing I need to point out that has had a major impact on my recovery: Honesty. No matter who it hurts, it’s MY truth. Holding shit in and sugar coating things to keep from hurting people OR the perception I wanted them to have of me did nothing but rot me from inside.
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
Being consumed with the character of Chris Kael and losing the real me amplified everything. Feeling pretty good about who I am today. ME. And, I can still destroy any stage and won’t back down from a goddamn thing. #ANewLevel https://t.co/1QIQt0aRZ6
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
I’m not. Not against that. It’s the one thing that completely caught me off guard and made me someone I 100 percent am not. Rehab gave me my TRUE self back and I’m forever grateful. https://t.co/NulWw8RMyU
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
Oh she played a major role for sure. Had she not busted me trying to restock after burning through $1300 in blow in two days in late January, I truly believe that I would not be here today. I was PISSED initially; but, thankful now knowing she was the one person who truly cared. https://t.co/YdmDrHIoYo
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
Thanks for letting me share today. I woke up to the universe telling me I needed to take a break from journaling and get part of my story out to you. To help. To be that positive spark to someone, somewhere out there who needed these words as much as I needed to write them…
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
I’ve shared the peace that I’m comfortable sharing currently. I continue to write in hopes that someday that it all is available for you to read. I appreciate your own personal stories; but, for me, it’s important to stay positive and at arm’s length as I work through this.
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
I look forward to traveling the world with @ffdp again beginning in April. I have a whole new appreciation for the job of which I’ve been given. And, I look forward to discovering new intent and purpose in this job as I continue this forward. Clear and sober. #ShitYesSon
— Chris Kael (@5FDPChrisKael) April 2, 2018
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[via The PRP]
